Who am i ?

Who am I ? My name is Sade Mendes. I am 24 years old and live in Lynn Mass. I've basically lived in this city for my whole life. I lived in Orlando Florida for about a yea, but decided to come back because I am very close with my older brothers and missed them a lot. I am the mother to a three year old boy who believes he is a superhero. And also have just became a step mother to an energetic three year old step daughter. I am very obsessed with anything that has to do with fall. Its basically my favorite time of the year. Carmel apples, anything pumpkin spice and cool weather keeps me sane !

I have many interest and hobbies. I grew up with two brothers so I've always taken an interest in sports. I enjoy playing basketball and having a son I enjoy playing with him. Another interest of mine is watching football. There's nothing like being on a couch in a comfy sweater watching the pats play ! Since becoming a mother and preschool teacher I have become very crafty. So on my spare time I also enjoy doing crafts with the children. Just being outside and enjoying the weather and taking walks is by all time my most favorite thing to do

 

My friends would describe me as dedicated. Since becoming a mother I have completely changed. Before I was a very selfish person now everything I do is all because of him. They would also say I'm quiet. many times when I am with them they always say I am quiet. And no its not because I am shy, its just because I like to sit back and observe people and their behaviors. My mother always says that I am loving. From raising my own child to coming into a relationship and taking on another child I have no reason to be anything but that. From taking care of a sick child to kissing booboos to just putting a smile on their face its a full time job and nothing is more important than making sure a child feels loved. My boyfriend describes me as stubborn. I have a hard time accepting peoples opinions on things even when I know they are right about things.

I feel the love of those who are not physically around me.

I know your watching over me I can
Feel you
Everyday.
Every second when Im feeling down, the thought of you
Lifts me back up.
The memories that we
Have I wont
Ever let them fade away.
Loosing you was the hardest thing , and I still deal with it each day.
Often I wish that we could've spent more time.
Visiting you is hard and makes the pain reappear.
Everyone misses you, we wish that you was here.
Often when im feeling down I think of you and smile,
For if we could only have one last minute
That would bring me so much joy.
Hoping that your looking down on my precious little boy.
Or are you near me keeping my spirit up high,
Sending me happiness when I feel I can almost cry .
Every now and then I have dreams and I can feel you near,
Arms wrapped around so tightly, then to wake up and
Realize you aren't really here.
Each day I miss you a little bit more,
Not a day goes by that I don't think of the times we had.
Only you could bring me out of some of my bad moods.
Today I've become a better person because of you,
Pictures of you still
Hang on my wall.
Your smile picks me up when Im ready to fall.
Stories you told me,
I will share with my son.
Calling you
And hearing your voice I always miss.
Leaving your house always started off with a hug and a kiss.
Laughing at your sarcastic jokes,
You had the best sense of humor.
Always kept a smile on my face no matter my mood, you
Really help me out more than you knew.
Our gatherings seem less quiet,
Unlike what were use to.
Now all I'm left with is memories that ill hold on forever.
Definitely  helps smile knowing you and gramps are together.
My heart will always have a spot that's taken up just by you.
Evenings before I close my eyes, I think of you and happiness is what I feel inside.

In memory of my nana.. I miss you so much